Life is not about answers. It’s about learning to live in the middle of complete uncertainty and doing so gracefully.
if you have the courage
to make it through a lonely night
with nothing but
your self destructive thoughts
to keep you company,
darling, you have
the courage to make it through
"silent nights" by typical treatment. (4 july 2014)
thank you to everyone who has shown such love to this poem! one of my most successful yet, approaching 5000 notes!
A GREAT REVELATION
You don’t have to believe, judge, delete, or act upon your ‘negative’ thoughts.
Just notice them.
Observe with fascination.
They soon pass like clouds into nothingness and silence, leaving no trace.
They are not your enemies, and ultimately, they are not even ‘negative’.
They are just thoughts.
Let them stay, let them go.
They are innocent clouds in a vast sky of awareness.
I cannot make you understand. I cannot make anyone understand what is happening inside me. I cannot even explain it to myself.
You say you wish to be free of desires and expectations. And it is true: your own desire is disturbing you. For even noble desires such as the desire to save the world or to be a good person or even to attain liberation can actually distract you from discovering what is truly already here—natural, unbound contentment. Once you have a desire burning inside, you will be waiting anxiously for it to be fulfilled, and if it is not fulfilled, your anxiety will increase. So it is good to be open to the possibility of dropping all desires. Desire promises much but fulfills little. Though it is possible, most people find it impossible to drop even a single desire as they feel they will lose something precious. It is like taking a dry bone from a dog. So rather than telling you to drop desire, I say, find out what it actually promises to give you, and also identify the actual person who will receive it. Don’t assume. Find out. Is any of this real? These questions can feel deeply challenging as they threaten to expose ego’s unreality. Very few go beyond to discover their real power as the undivided Self and so put an end to delusion.
Only to the extent that we expose ourselves over and over to annihilation can that which is indestructible in us be found.
It’s not the load that breaks you down; it’s the way you carry it.